Love And Hate

This three month is very upset,because of  him and his friend 

all bout bullshit ppl and matter,fxxking noob personality problem!
but why I did involve on it!
I don't want those very very very Hate and Disappointed feeling
afterthis I never be fine him anymore…
I angry him why dint protect at that time? and I involve…
Why I should to Endure them ?about They bullshit brain?
and they no qualifications to 
not even I cant sleep well evernight,whole brain only thinking him why can do so selfish?
treat me cruel… why? whole brain…
how I facing with him again ??
ady 3 month,I still cant let off,I fail to forget and forgive him no matter why I should forgive him again and again:( 
 Love?  no!
 I just wan back my happy life… 
really im so tired on you and it,and you just think is small case or not mind…
 why u are no take care of  me when I down ?when I get wronged from your friend…
 where u go when I need you?

Some ppl say,
 shall we talk and slove? but always argue?how to settle?
 and you never let me try to solve….
 for you,u think if dint mention,happen will be disappear… but how about me?
 izit can forget my hurt? U think is it…
 You are selfish,u ady choose give up me and our's two year affection!

everyone said will be allright,is fine,just let time to fade,just leave it…….
but no one know I cant sleep everynight I cant eat like normal……and I miss him formerly badly ,I want you badly...

 but I know I cant forgive him
 let me alone ,I also cant stay with him even one second!

 hate and love
 I choose myself

 whatever those ppl no understand me ,and stepping me always!
 just doing and complain what you all like…

 my life no need justify to you all